“We’re All Mad Here”

Oh, hey, it’s me again.

I’ve been laying low because I’ve been feeling a little uninspired and scatterbrained and just ‘blank’. I apologize for that and I’m hoping coming here and sharing with you will help get me back on track.

I would love to write about something not related to the virus but I’m finding it hard because literally everything in life is all about it right now. I’ll try to stay away from the well known facts and scary truths and give it a little spin. I think it will help me as much as I hope it can help some of you feeling the same way.

Our kids here in Arizona were already a week into Spring Break when school was put on hold for an additional two weeks and as of today, for the rest of the year. #justbreathe

So while I was talking to myself this morning, I was thinking this whole ‘no school’ situation is like an eternal summer.

Hold on, I don’t mean the eternal summers of yore when we were young and spent our days coated in oil baking in the sun, going to our super fun part time summer jobs, and drinking with friends all night just to wake up sun kissed and ready to do it all again.

I’m talking about the eternal summer adults have. The kind where you have to work but your kids are home and everything you do takes ten times longer because you have to stop every five minutes when someone (Brayden) yells, ‘mmmooooommmm’. THAT kind of eternal summer.

Don’t get me wrong, I love my kids. I love that they get extra time to chill and be kids, but also not really because they can’t see their friends or go do fun things. Instead it’s like living in this weird limbo where we alternate between yelling at each other and baking yummy treats. It’s really confusing.

But just like everyone else in the world at this point, we’re doing our best. I’m trying not to let them spend all their time on video games even though it gives me quiet time to work or type blog posts ;-). I’m making them go on walks with me even though it is absolute torture for them because they honestly love the vampire life. I’m forcing my teenager to get out of bed by noon even though he has some very valid arguments as to why it’s totally unnecessary.

I’m working very hard at trying to establish what will be our new normal for the indefinite future. I’m doing it for them as much as myself. I am a creature of habit and without the gym in the morning, school drop off, and a normal routine, I have found myself kind of getting things done but on a much different time line.

For example; today I worked out, paid bills, and made sure my kids logged onto home school  - but when I showered, put my pants on and looked at the clock, it was 2pm. I woke up at seven. What the hell was I doing all day? Those things normally would’ve been done in a couple of hours. I’m losing track of regimens and schedules and therefore time is of no meaning. I need to fix that.

Last time I posted about staying positive and getting things done - and I am definitely getting things done, but in a strange hazy fog-like state where time seems to move really fast or drag very slowly - I can’t decide which but I do know it makes a difference.

Time to accept the new normal and make some more changes to keep all of our lives on some sort of track. This week I am trying to implement some sort of schedule and timeline for myself as much as my children. It’s important to adjust and change as needed because if you didn’t know before, you sure know now: LIFE CAN CHANGE AT ANY MOMENT.

** This took me like, three hours to write because of interruptions and some staring off into space. Again, I am a work in progress but putting it down here helps to keep me on track and find my focus. If you have any suggestions, please share! If you have any non-virus related questions for me, please ask or message me. I would love to talk about anything else - ANYTHING!